Strangely, I’m at peace.
This week has been a bit of a roller coaster.
After being reassured that I could renew my work visa in country, I found out at the last minute that I need to leave.
That threw me and my husband for a loop.
Questions like how we would pay for the trip (God provided), who would watch the kids (God also provided) and where I should go (God said) swirled around with plenty of emotion (at least on my side).
It was getting all sorted out until today.
The government agency that gives permission for visas refused to accept my documents.
And I realized how tenuous my life is.
I have a plan and assumptions, and then it can all change.
Tomorrow the company I work for will try again, but if the government denies again, then….
Let’s just say my husband and I have decided not to worry about that until it happens.
Which is better, because it’s not tomorrow yet.
Either way, it made me think of that verse,
“The Lord gives and takes away. Blessed be the name of the Lord.”
Not that God has taken anything away yet. It’s just that life could change rather drastically rather soon.
And today, when I met with a friend who is deciding whether or not to return to God, I realized that we really don’t know how many chances we are going to get with someone.
After knowing someone almost seven years, it is easy to be lulled into thinking that there will be a next time.
But today it hit me that I really can’t count on that.
That must be why the Scripture says the days are evil. Not that there is anything inherently wrong with time, but there is something very wrong with living like we can always make a decision or decide to say something another time.
That attitude is actually pretty arrogant, and I have to say that I’m guilty of that kind of arrogance a lot of the time.
With God’s help, I decided to be bold tonight.
Now the rest is up to Him.