I just love my new job as a proofreader/teacher. It’s a great fit for my experience, and a blessing from God for our whole family.
All this joy has been recently slightly tinged by the realization that I’m still on probation, the period of time in a contract where both the employer and employee are gauging whether everything is working well enough to continue for the whole contract.
I work at home, and my direct interpersonal contact is limited to two hours per week at the office. I have started worrying that maybe I’m doing a lousy job (or maybe just an OK job) and that perhaps, when the probation period nears a close, I will be fired.
Maybe an irrational concern, but present nonetheless.
So recently, realizing that I was worrying about it, I decided to pray.
Like the Scripture says, “Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God.”
A few days ago, I specifically asked God to give me some feedback on my job at work. I wanted to know if was on the right track or needed to redirect my efforts.
Later that day, I happened to meet (for the first time) the only other American at my workplace. It’s a little odd since I have met everyone else who works there except for him, and I have been working there for close to three months. But like I said, I’m seldom at the office.
And today (three days later) I ran into him a second time.
This time he told me had just read something he could tell I’d edited.
“I’m not even going to tell you what it was,” he said. “It’s making a huge difference.”
Gratified by the feedback but also by the answer to prayer, I could feel the stress lift off.
It’s an amazing thing to be a child of God. Should I have worried about my job? No. Did I? Yes. But when I turned to God with this really little thing, so little that I didn’t even share it with my own husband, He faithfully answered.
“See what great love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! And that is what we are!”