Sometimes I pray like an atheist.
I believe in God, but sometimes I pray like no one is really listening.
I was in traffic the other day thinking about my life, and realizing how many times I have prayed that way only to have God answer very specifically.
It happened again today.
I was going grocery shopping. Before I left Jake gave me our “food and transport” envelope with cash inside of it.
I quickly wrote a list and headed out the door. On the way I prayed for God’s help to buy “not too much but not too little.” I needed His help to get everything on the list (no easy feat in Central Asia) and to remember and find the things I knew we needed but forgot to write down.
As I walked around the bazaar and then the supermarket I found quite a few things I hadn’t wrote down and put them in the cart. I also found the items on the list.
Finally the Holy Spirit said to me, ” that’s enough.”
I headed toward the checkout line and the cashier started to go through the items. As she got close to finishing it suddenly occurred to me I might not have enough money.
She told me the amount 22,656 Kzt ($151) and I nodded and gave her all the cash I had left in the envelope — 20,000 Kzt ($133) and then started rifling through my purse for more money. I found a 2000 Kzt bill (about $13) and then two 200 Kzt bills (a little less than $3) in a front pocket. In another front pocket I found 206 Kzt in coins.
Starting to panic and go through one empty pocket after another (and think what I was going to say about not being able to pay) I opened another pocket in my purse (which normally I don’t keep money in) and found one last, beautiful 50 Kzt coin.
I handed it to the cashier, and realized I had just paid 22,656 Kzt exactly. I lliterally had not another tenge ($.0067) to give her.
The girls were kind of amazed, too, since I think they were also thinking about what they were going to do if I couldn’t pay.
I started laughing and said “Praise God! It’s my last tenge! I don’t have anymore!”
I think the girls thought I was a little nuts (the older Russian woman next in line absolutely did) but I knew God had yet again been very specific answering my prayer.
“If God is on our side, who can be against us?”
Praise God, we have a God who hears us.
Just wanted to include a little photo reminder of this answer to prayer.